Shelly's Diary

May 2007

May 15

…Have been doing THCMM and ZBE along with my regular practice, which varies from day to day. I usually alternate between LCUPCD, Standing Meditation, Body Mind method and occasional wall squats.

When I do THCMM, I feel a gentle pulsing in my brain afterward, and when I do ZBE, I feel tingling in my nose and on the top of my head. I also notice that when I do the "conserving chi" afterward, I quickly enter into a deeply peaceful state and feel very connected to Master Liu, even though I have only seen him a few times on the ZBE video.

Today I did THCMM and ZBE, then an hour and 15 minutes of Body Mind. I noticed the top of my head tingling again and then both of my ears seemed to open and I had a very itchy feeling in both of them. (In fact, I still do...)…

May 17
…Yesterday, when I was doing Standing Meditation, it seemed harder than usual, so I really tried to focus on my breath, specifically belly breathing, and I noticed that the top of my head started tingling almost as soon as I started breathing in that way. It was interesting experiencing such a direct connection…

May 18
… Head felt light, tingly after THCMM.
During ZBE, again, felt like my right ear was opening somehow.
Conserving chi was peaceful. Could feel tingling under chin and all over jaw lines…

May 19
… Still experiencing pain in back of neck. Will see if Crane's neck will help.
Am experiencing much tingling all over the body, especially around the face and jaw and the heels of the hands.
When belly breathing, had the sensation that my whole body was breathing, including my head and arms and legs.

It seems that I am feeling much more chi since practicing ZBE this past week, but need to make more time so that I can add THCMM and ZBE and still do my longer practices. Will figure it out…

May 20
Feel pulsing in my brain after THCMM, and after ZBE can feel that I am breathing much more deeply and effortlessly.

Am still feeling a lot more chi when I practice LCUPCD after doing ZBE. In addition to the face and jaw tingling, am getting clearer visualizaitons when I am practicing.

Have read your translation of Dr. Pang's HYTheory. Can see why it takes a lot of effort and time, but thank you so much for doing it. I think many people will benefit from reading it. Also, thank you for the translation of Master Liu's healing meditation.

Am missing Body/Mind, but am trying to be strong.

May 21
…After THCMM, head felt very light.
During Conserving chi, felt pressure again building in the back of my neck. It was relieved when I truned my head to check the time, and then returned to my original position. Then immediately I felt a wave of energy pass through my heart and chest area, going from right to left, the same direction I had returned my head to. It felt very powerful.

LCUPCD...50mins
Felt a lot of chi during the entire practice. My hands and arms felt very cold, but not unpleasant, kind of like a fresh breeze was passing through them. Visualizations are becoming much clearer.

May 22
…Am very much enjoying doing ZBE/THCMM in the morning. I feel much more alert and ready to start my day after the practice. Have no difficulty with the breathing part, but am still experiencing neck pain during conserving chi practice. Think I will try Crane's neck before ZBE and see if that helps.

The 2 things that I am noticing most about my practice since beginning ZBE is how much stronger the chi feels when I do my practice, and how much clearer my visualizations have become. Yesterday, I was doing a healing session for a friend of mine who is experiencing chest pain, and it seemed that I could really see/experience the chi penetrating into his heart, without really even trying too much. Usually, I have to work at holding a mental image of an organ or body part, but this time it was extremely clear. Am very grateful for the progress.

Am also rereading Abundant Life now.

May 23

Hao La, Jane...

Practice: ZBE, Conserving Chi, THCMM tor a total of 1 hour.
Sensations: Breathing was very clear/open. Distracted by pain in neck while doing conserving chi. A few Crane's neck exercises seemed to relieve it.

LCUPCD for about 1 hour.
Felt very tingly all over face and arms. While pouring chi down, top of head was tingling. Felt very energizing.

Movement 5/6 -Body Mind Method...10 min
Felt much chi while bending forward, and almost weightless between bends.

Am really liking the effect ZBE is having on my practice. Can you say more about why breathing instruction is not emphasized, and even seemingly discouraged, by some other teachers?

May 24
…Sensations: Very hot during ZBE #2. Head felt very light, expanded after THCMM. Mind was distracted during LCUPCD. Hard to focus.

May 25
…Tingling over face and along jaw line…

May 26
…More ZBE and Conserving Chi during class time (not sure how long it was...)
Tingling along jaw line and point of chin…

Found myself worrying about you during the day. You did not seem like yourself during the class. Hope that all is well.

May 27
…ZBE #2 Felt prickly (not tingly) sensation on top of head ZBE #3 Slight discharge from left eye THCMM Intense tingling under nose. Conserving Chi...Left sinus area very tingly, right ear opened LCUPCD.. Distracted; got lost in the form; very unusual
Body Mind...Crane's neck exercise was more difficult than usual (something is definitely going on with my neck), but the rest was very relaxing. Felt like I was floating…

May 28
Felt a lot of tingling, especially in face and jaw area.
During conserving chi, felt like a pressure was building in my entire body and like it was electrified. Was very intense, but not uncomfortable.

After the practice, leaned forward and put my head on my knees. Felt a rush of energy and both ears opened again.

May 29
…Again during ZBE, felt a lot of tingling, especially in face and jaw area.
During conserving chi, felt like a finger was gently pressing into the center of my back. Then later, like heat was radiating from that point outward.

Difficult time concentrating during LCUPCD…

June 2007

June 1
Felt familiar tingling sensations. Slight discharge from eyes. When hand is
moving down my body during ZBE#2, feels like my hand is moving over a wave.
Some neck and back pain during the last Yang chi.

Have noticed for awhile that I get that "tingling chi" feeling now whenever I am
reading something important. Almost like the tingling is telling me to pay
attention. It's interesting.

June 2
…Prickly feeling at crown. Tingly sensations over face and jaw. Chilly feeling
throughout body during yang chi.

Enjoyed class this morning very much. Thank you, Jane.
HYLT!

June 3
…Wish I could do yang chi forever.

LCUPCD 30 mins
Felt very connected to the form. Seemed like the form was leading me,
instead of me doing the form. Very peaceful.

Body Mind 45 mins (crane's neck, forward bends, hip rotations/tilts)
Am surprised and relieved that I am still able to do these movements fairly easily,
even though I no longer do them as often.

June 4
…Watched Master Liu's breathing video again. Did more THCMM, ZBE 30 mins

No longer any pain in neck. Fingers and shoulders feel more relaxed.
Feeling better all around.

…Tingly sensations, especially along jaw line. More discharge from eyes.
Prickly crown…

June 5
…Deeply peaceful state during yang chi. Felt as if I was breathing very slowly,
with each breath expanding my entire body. Am feeling very grateful for this
breathing exercise as I am managing to stay balanced during what is an
unbelievably busy time for me right now…

June 7
…Sensations: many of the same sensations (tingling, peaceful feeling); during
yang chi also felt as if my lower back (mingmen) area was opening and closing
with each breath, like a camera shutter, only in slow motion…

June 8
…Sensations: Am breathing very deeply; feels very peaceful; wall squats
easier than I thought, given that I haven't done them in awhile…

June 9
…Sensations: Notice that physical activities seem easier for me, even though
I have less time to do them, and am not doing much Body/Mind, which I used to
think was keeping me stronger. I think it must be related to my breathing much
deeper than before. Concentrated on diaphragm massaging internal organs.

…Very much enjoyed class again. Thank you.

June 10
…Sensations: During Conserving chi, could feel energy in bottoms of feet,
and left side of body felt cold inside. Again felt shutter like opening and closing
in lower back. Neck pain is barely noticeable and mood is relaxed/peaceful
for the most part.

Felt very peaceful and connected during LCUPCD. Am having very different/
clearer images since focusing my mind on keeping expansion and contraction
 all within my body.

Did BM method all the way through for the first time since beginning this ourse.
Can tell I haven't done it for a while, mostly where balancing is involved.
Am missing it less and less.

June 11
…Sensations: During first ZBE session, felt tingling deep inside my throat,
not on the surface as usual. Later, when practicing the second time today,
felt as if entire body was slightly vibrating. Had image of golden yellow light
(like sun) in yintang area and body seemed to be vibrating in sync with the light…

June 12
…Sensations: Spine felt energized, electrified, with energy radiating out to my
shoulder blades. During yang chi, was focusing on belly breathing and it
seemed that I could see the chi gathering to my dantian in waves.

Was interrupted 3 times by my children during yang chi, but was able to refocus
almost immediately. It seemed as if the chi field was just waiting for me to
step back into it…

June 13
…Sensations: Was chanting HYLT during yang chi and felt each word resonating
 to a part of my body. Hun (yintang) Yuan (throat) Ling (heart) Tong (lower dantian)…

June 14
…Sensations: Familiar tingling, wave-like sensation (ZBE 2), energy in spine…

June 16
…Sensations: Tingling, rippling sensation, prickly feeling at crown, very expansive
feeling during yang chi. Breathing feels deep and clear.

Thank you for class this morning. I look forward to hearing more about HY Entirety
Theory. What I have learned so far from other sources is not nearly as
comprehensive. I am so glad that I signed up for your class. I really look forward to
Sat mornings and wish the class was twice as long…

June 17
…Sensations: Felt something new between my shoulder blades today while Yang chi..
Very much like the feeling I have sometimes in my Mingmen...like a camera shutter
opening and closing. Then felt energy spread through my chest and arms.
Very intense, but not really painful.

LCUPCD felt great. Maybe because of you and Master Liu, or because I am not
doing it as often, I really am appreciating/feeling the benefits of this form. I used to
do it almost every day, and although I have experienced many benefits, it rarely felt
as peaceful and relaxing as it does now.

Let myself do a short Body Mind today, because there is a group of people who
meet at my house on Sundays, and they expect to do that form. I must admit that it
felt very good, but no longer feel attached to it. Was very careful to do extra
yang chi afterward…

June 18
…Sensations: During each yang chi, felt energy spreading throughout my body,
even to my feet and legs. During the second half of the last yang chi...my eyes
seemed to squeeze shut tighter and when I relaxed them, I felt like I was in
another dimension...almost floating. Very cool…

June 20
… Sensations: Felt a little nauseous, and had several painful sensations about 4 inches
above my navel during ZBE#2. Also a lot of heat. During final Yang chi, felt the space
between my shoulder blades opening and closing again. Felt as if my whole body was
breathing through that opening. After that, felt as if I could feel and see every cell in my
body, and that they were all vibrating with light. Looked into one cell and could see like
a hologram of whole body in that cell. Looked into that body and could see all cells again.
Think if I could have focused intently enough, I would be able to see an infinite number
of these iterations...body/cell/body/cell…

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